When the doctor told me he had signed me off work for 4 weeks with no sitting, no driving and no lifting after an operation on a herniated spinal disk, I was horrified; one month out doesn’t fit in to my daily plan at all, I thought. Seeing my face, the doc stood up and headed for the door. My dear Lady, he said firmly, it is your decision, but please believe, that I have better things to do than to operate on you every 6 months for the same problem. If you don’t spend the next month lying down you’ll be back here before Christmas, but not on my watch.
Right then. I started to panic … 4yo just starting a new Kindergarten year, new job, own business … sitting and driving mandatory for everything I do. But as is always the way, somehow, within 24 hours, the ether produced a crow-bar which has managed to shuffle all of our lives a tad to the left, to accommodate for me doing just that. For four weeks.
My next thought was, What the heck am I going to do with myself flat on my back for all that time??! I’ll go stir crazy. Ahem. Here’s my top ten list and, by the way, dear Doc, if you’re reading this, another month would actually be great …
- L is for Listen – Something I don’t do enough of in general. September is going to be a month where I rediscover my ears. I can’t multi-task lying down which means I can give my child 100% attention when he’s here which I’m sure he lacks from me normally. I also want to “listen” to music. As a teenager I used to spend hours lying on my bed playing records and really appreciating them. These days music is always on but only ever in the background while we’re doing other things. This morning I lay here listening to the wind. How often do we allow ourselves time do that in our busy lives? I should do it more – it made me feel amazing.
- Y is for Yawn which I can do at the moment without being ashamed of it … followed by a snooze at whim! All this lying down business is exhausting! I can feel my body using up its energy to sort out my back, post-op, so I’m letting it take its course. If I’m tired, I sleep. A luxury seriously lacking in my normal everyday life.
- I is for Insight – I rarely have time to read a newspaper and my ‘keeping up with the world’ has to happen on the go via news headlines, car radio or the occasional dip into the net, so I’m looking forward to catching up on the world and filling in some gaps by researching the bits I’m clueless on. Another I which I’m really excited about is having the time to I-mmerse myself in a book or DVD – TV series – unheard of in my normal everyday life! I have finally dug out Nelson Mandella’s Long Walk to Freedom which is enormous and which I have been holding back for a time like this. I started it in hospital and am absolutely engrossed. What an inspiration. And then there’s I-magination / I-deals- I have so many ideas flitting around my head and never give myself the time to do anything with them. Let’s see what comes out of these four weeks.
- N is for Networking – This is linked to D and to I and, where life has always seemed to get in the way of where I really actually want to be, I want to dig deeper and explore the possibilities behind my own ideals and potential. I need to make some more changes and that could start here. Perhaps these 4 weeks are a gift! Oof. Planning!!
- G is for Gonna get that guitar out! – I have had new strings since Easter and haven’t played once. If I lie the other way around on this ‘ere sofa, I can play in the ‘chilled’ position! Yeah.
- D is for Define some serious objectives for the next two years before L goes to school. In exactly 2 years from now, we will meet crunch time as he walks into his first classroom with an official curriculum. I therefore have 24 months to get to a place where, in Sept 2013, we can venture out into the next 5 years knowing we’re doing it from the right base camp. Very much related to N!
- O is for Obliterate all the rubbish on 2 x 500GB of full disk space! – self explanatory
- W is for Work – being off sick isn’t going to pay the bills so I am still accepting small contracts which I can process using the laptop propped up on a cushion on my knees; Then of course, W is for Write which I hope to do a bit more of too … here’s the start..!
- N is for New … this is a big one: New perspectives, old motivations rekindled and approached from a different angle, new objectives and a new hope for the future for myself and my child.
- !!! is for Getting myself together and making something happen !!!
I am resolved to use these four weeks to regroup and review all our options. A month is a long time, but if I don’t plan to use it properly I risk fritting it away; TV, Twitter and the net are all alluring distractions but after my initial horror at “4 weeks of intense nothing” (quote my surgeon) this month could actually be a great opportunity to take a positive step to setting my life back in the direction I have always dreamed it would take. From my point of view, I may be sore, but this month is a gift and I want to put it to the best use I can. Let’s just see how disciplined I can be!!!
So now over to you. If you had 4 weeks of mandatory Lying Down, what would be your top ten list of things to do??
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